Anna: I used to love hotels, but now I’m always in a new apartment or in another hotel somewhere.
Oliver: How do you keep hold of friends? Or boyfriends? 
Anna: Makes it very easy to end up alone. To leave people. 
Oliver: You can stay in the same place and still find ways to leave people. 

I come here and imagine that this is the spot where everything I’ve lost since my childhood is washed out. I tell myself, if that were true, and I waited long enough then a tiny figure would appear on the horizon across the field and gradually get larger until I’d see it was Tommy. He’d wave. And maybe call. I don’t know if the fantasy go beyond that, I can’t let it. I remind myself I was lucky to have had any time with him at all. What I’m not sure about, is if our lives have been so different from the lives of the people we save. We all complete. Maybe none of us really understand what we’ve lived through, or feel we’ve had enough time.